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barnacle

sealed shut by you

decades ago,

my eyes stubbornly refuse to open

as sunlight pierces my realm.

release me,

i whisper.

one hundred years i’ve been

here,

surrounded by a stench more massive

than the entrails of a decaying blue whale.

parched lips drop blood

onto a slimy green floor.

release me,

i beg.

atrophied and blind,

i stretch broken hands outward

toward the warmth,

yearning to be loved

as a newborn is by her mother.

your laughter echoes to and fro,

bouncing off the walls of my

hidden prison.

release me,

i plead.

you giggle,

lapping at my sanity

as a kitten laps at milk in a warm kitchen.

the ocean crashes onto a sandy shore,

stealing grains of my mind

with each retraction,

replacing them with your own.

forcing me to accept a new reality as you

crush me down further and further,

denying me heaven.

so i sit.

cling to the slimy walls of my odoriferous cell

as a barnacle clings to a ship afloat upon an unforgiving sea.

lost, forever, yet drifting

doggedly toward hope.


through a wood

i found myself on a road

late one night.

it curved through

a dark forest,

haunting sounds echoed to and fro.

wet pavement beneath

my naked feet,

leading me away from

from him

toward an unknown

destination.

i crept forward,

persistent,

determined,

fearful,

trapped deep

within a prison

built by him

for me

years ago.

as light sliced

through the repugnant

night,

you found me.

reached for me,

whispered strength

and beauty in my ears.

your words

your voice

shattered the fragile

bars of the prison

built for me

by him.

we ran,

filled with a soaring joy,

toward an unknown destination.

your path turned away from mine

suddenly

without warning,

as night plunged deep

into my heart

once again.

i know

i’ll find daylight

soon.

i know

i’ll be strong

again.

for now,

i walk,

alone,

on a path meant for me.

a path on which i am

free,

a path on which i know

i am beautiful,

i am strong,

i am undoubtedly me.

the thunder gathers

in the distance

as rain pours down upon

my body,

i turn my face up,

hold my arms out,

and laugh.