spinning dreidel

נ*

lost and drifting

devoid of pretense

nothing left of my life

but myself.

echoes of my former self

lose themselves

against empty whispers

which now fill my path.

ש**

solace pours in

through sunlight found

deep in the forest.

air filters into

broken lungs;

healing

a shattered heart.

ה***

stumbling forward I cling

to hope of

happiness

love

joy.

half my heart heals

the other half

still lies shattered.

ג****

i stand

barely upright

breathing shallow breaths

as i spin toward

the unknown.

i am broken.

but still i spin

even if out of control

for a few moments.

forging forward into

an unknown world.

it is here

i pray for a miracle.

a miracle of me.

*Nun – (Nisht) Yiddish – nothing

**Shin – (shtel arayn) – Yiddish – put in

***Hei – (halb) Yiddish – half in

***Gimel – (gants) all

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